As a “young”, “emotional”, “confused” person, I’ve realized and I’ve been persuaded that many of life’s parts are a series of contradictions and tensions that need to be dealt with or else left alone. Today I had a conversation over spotted apples and it’s made me think about what exactly what I want from life, both because it did and because I wanted to capitalize on such a rare instance of lucid confusion.  I would like to keep this list as short as possible, and they are only numbered to keep track of the amount of points.

1. Spending time and taking care of my family and friends.

2. Learning, enjoying, creating, experiencing poetry, literature, art.

3. Understanding nature by living in it, and to properly respect it and defend it.

4. Making a living from something that I am proud of.

5. Sharing love.

6. Questioning myself and answering myself.

7. Realizing life in its chaos and order.

Goddamn, lists make everything seem so simple. But perhaps there is a simple side to things. That would be reassuring – a warm and reliable thought.